Demi Lovato continues to open up to the press and inspire others through her own struggles with substance abuse. This time, the singer spoke to NYLON for their December/January issue and makes a great example for girls looking to transform and recover.
"It was hard to listen to the word 'no.' I wanted to make my own rules. I thought that if I was adult enough to get there, then I could party like an adult. And obviously, I couldn't," Lovato told NYLON. Her Camp Rock co-star Joe Jonas recently admitted to New York Magazine that his first time smoking weed was with Lovato and Mile Cyrus, reporting, "They kept saying, 'Try it! Try it!'"
Joe Jonas revealed he had a deep relationship with Lovato, though their romantic relationship only lasted about a month. "I really got to know her and got to see the ins and outs of what she was struggling with, like drug abuse," he told New York. "I felt like I needed to take care of her, but at the same time I was living a lie, because I wasn't happy but felt like I had to stay in it for her, because she needed help. I couldn't express any of that, of course, because I had a brand to protect."
Lovato admitted to NYLON that she eventually got out of control, but she does not blame her parents. "My parents tried to control me, but I'd be like, 'Oh really, I'm grounded? Well, I pay the bills.'" Still, she noted that they tried their best.
This lack of control and the hard partying took its toll on Lovato, and she eventually ended up in rehab. There she faced a tough choice between honesty and openness or personal privacy. "My parents came to visit, and I asked if people knew yet, and they said, 'Yeah, it's everywhere,'" Lovato said. "And they were like, 'How do you want to handle this? We can say it's a personal time and we don't have to tell them what you're in here for, or we can just be 100 percent honest and show them that you can get through it and other people can get through it, too.'"
Her choice to be open about her struggles and forego her own privacy has had a massive effect on her fans. "Now I have probably the best relationship between any artist and their fans, because I have no secrets." Lovato has done a lot for people affected by addiction: After her father's death, she created a scholarship program this year to aid those struggling with mental health and addiction issues. Yet, she wants her identity to be more complex than "the girl who cut" or her former Disney persona. Still, she has been an inspiration to many. The issue of Nylon hits newsstands this Tuesday.
Watch Demi Lovato talk about the scholarship program in honor of her father's death: